Some rambling thoughts and tiny baby kicks.

My first instinct is to say that this pregnancy has been so different from my first... but then when I really think about it, its been quite similar. I think I'm just different. Our life is different. I spend my days running around with a toddler and the time I have to devote to self-care things and baby focused things is pretty much non-existent. Lets be clear on one thing here though, I'm certainly not complaining. This season of life is by far the most wonderful one I've experienced. Its busy and full in the very best of ways and I am beyond excited for what's to come for our little family. That being said, I don't feel like I've had quite as much time/internal reflection to wrap my head around the fact that this pregnancy is REAL. There's REALLY a baby in there! Holy crap!
 
I've grown quite a bit more rapidly this time around than I did with Navi...I didn't show with her until I was around 5+ months along or so. This time around my body just knows what to do. It's softening, curving and growing to accommodate this new little being. It feels so much more effortless this time around. Which is weird to say because my pregnancy with Na was probably one of the easiest ones in history. I think what I'm trying to say is that I'm just trusting my body a lot more than I did before. I'm not overthinking things, I'm just letting nature do its thing. And it feels good.
 
(I'm not really sure where I'm going with all this...)
 
Last night, for the first time, I felt a good five minutes worth of tiny baby kicks. It was at that exact moment that things started to feel REALLY real to me. And I cried the happiest of tears... the first I've cried for this child since finding out we were pregnant. And it was wonderful. I thought I was excited before... but it was just nowhere near the joy and excitement I have now. Feeling those tiny little butterfly wings reminded me just how much I've missed being pregnant and just how miraculous of a time it truly is. We are so very lucky as women to be able to experience the miracle of growing a life. It's beyond amazing and I'm so, so grateful to be on this journey once again.
In other news, I've somehow managed to lose my big girl camera. Just typing that sentence out makes me sweat! I haven't the slightest clue where it could be and needless to say I'm beyond devastated about it. Here's to hoping it decides to reappear before this little bundle of joy makes his or her debut.  

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  1. Those tiny baby kicks sure are the most miraculous feeling!! Feeling overjoyed with you! :)

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  2. Somehow I missed this post!!! I'd do it all again just for those baby kicks!!! ❤️ I'm so glad you found your big girl camera!! What camera/lens do you use btw?

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    1. I have a Canon Rebel XS... I don't think they sell it anymore but it was just the basic intro DSLR... I'm crossing my fingers for an upgrade for Christmas! And my lens is a 50mm 1.4.

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