Life right now.

 
There's this thing we do every night at bedtime and it's always one of my favorite moments of the day. I recount the day's favorite stories while Chris puts her pjs on and then I tell her goodnight and how much I love her. She responds every time with "lub ou too, mama!". She says it with such sincerity and such gusto that you'd never in a million years doubt it's truthfulness. Even the tone that she says it in is different than the tone she uses in day to day speech. I can't describe it but it's there and it fills me up every single time. Then, I close her door and press my ear to the crack and listen while her and Chris make their way to the rocker. I hear him tell her he loves her and she responds with "lub ou too, dada" in the same angel sweet tone that she uses with me. She doesn't stop professing her love until he responds with "thank you, Na". I walk away from the door and feel the most beautiful of burning tears building up behind my eyes and wonder how life will ever get any better than this exact moment.

That's not to say that we don't have our good days and our bad days, because we definitely do. But lately I keep having this feeling that 30 years from now, when Chris and I are sitting around talking about the good ole days and reminiscing about what once was, these moments, this little nightly ritual, that's something  we're going to bring up time and time again. We'll talk of how wonderful it was to be the stars in our sweet girl's sky and how painfully beautiful it felt to have her angel-sweet words crack our hearts wide open. We'll talk about how she said all her s's as l's and how when I would come back from the laundry room she would say that she was "missin' and needin" me. We'll remember how she used to say that her blankets smelled "snuggy" and how she would feed Sandy every piece of dog food in her dog bowl at breakfast time. Life is beautiful. 

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  1. Seriously you might just have the most beautiful little nugget ever! Her face just lights up a room or in my case the computer screen (hehe). So So sweet.

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    1. Thanks, Megan :) ... she's the sweetest, truly. So sweet in fact that I can usually look the other way when she has her early afternoon meltdown ;)

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  2. I have a feeling that you two won't be the only ones reminiscing one day as long as this continues. She's simply precious and very blessed... A beauty just like her mama! xo

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    1. You're the best Leah :) Sometimes she tells me she remembers "living in my tummy"... though I know she's just talking about pictures... but I sure do hope she remembers these little moments with us.... and if not then I'll just remind her of them time and time again with this blog ;)

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  3. She is so cute!! THOSE EYES!
    I follow you on IG.
    :)

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    1. Thank you, we think so too ;) I have brown eyes and I've never really been crazy about them...growing up i always hoped that my future children would have some nice baby blues... but holy cow, this girl's eyes are just out of this world lovely!

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  4. That first photo. Ugh, I just love it. It's so different than most of her others and to me just shows an older, wiser side. Sounds totally strange that way, but I don't know how else to describe.

    And it's funny that I just read this after our convo earlier and you putting the "good days and bad days" bit. You are one of the ones I love and always remained real to me. :)

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    1. Yeah, I totally agree. I rarely am able to capture photos of that deep-in-thought-sassy-ish side of her. Its pretty darn cute. And thanks for that, soul sista.... you know i just love ya to pieces! :) <3

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  5. Hey! So I love following you on IG, and have visited your blog once before and just thought I'd stop by again. Just read this and it brought tears to my eyes! You have such a beautiful way with words and being able to describe moments and feelings sooo well. It shows so clearly how much in love you are with your lil' girl. Precious. This makes me look forward to when our lil' guy will be talking and can say "i love you" back to us! :)

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    1. Hi Heather! I just checked out your post about your garden, holy cow that's impressive! Thanks so much for your sweet comment, it kinda made my day :) The whole saying "I love you" back stage is pretty darn great... probably my very favorite one yet (though I think I've said that during every stage, so ya know ;)... So glad you stopped by, lots of love to you guys! xoxo

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