A dream realized.

Sunday evening we were all outside in the front yard enjoying the 80º weather. It was like Summer had just happened overnight and the three of us were soaking in every last second of the day. Chris was putting together a playscape while Navi and I were playing wherever it was that her little hand led me. We were all sweaty and grimy from a long day of play and it may not have looked like much from the outside looking in, just a typical Sunday afternoon, but it was a very special day for me and it about brought me to tears.

You see, in my life, whenever I have thought about having a baby, this is what I always pictured. Not a teensy tiny newborn but a chubby cheeked, toddling baby with a floppy hat and a sweaty, white onesie. Face dirty, hands sticky and eyes only for mama. My dream baby. I don't think I ever consciously realized that this was a fantasy of mine but when I looked around and soaked in my moment, I had a deja vu of sorts. And as cheesy as it may sound, a dream was realized- I was watching a lifelong dream play out in my own front yard, and it was pretty surreal. And awesome, it was so very awesome.

You know when somethings so good and you just don't want it to end? Like a super amazing ice cream thats quickly melting in the heat, or a fun dream that you know you're going to wake up from but you just want to continue a little while longer because being able to fly is just so freaking cool, or a book series that you grow up with and maybe get a little too emotionally attached to (I'm talking to you Harry Potter ;). Well the evening kind of felt like all of those things, times a million. Anyway, the seconds ticked right on by, as seconds tend to do, and I just tried my hardest to hold on to each and every moment. I snapped away some pictures that I will hold close when Chris and I one day reminisce about our life together- when the bottom third of our patio door is no longer cloudy from little handprints and we fall asleep to a sound other than the hum of a video monitor.

When Navi was all done with her game of mud-toss in the lake and needed a soft spot to rest, she reached up and tugged on my shorts and asked me to pick her up ("bup, bup!"). Chris came over to us as we were walking towards the house and asked if we had fun playing in the water. I got all teary eyed (as I so often do when he's the only one around) and told him about my deja-vu/realized-dream moment. He just laughed, hugged me and said "yeah, she's pretty great isn't she?". I'll tell ya, that guy just gets me. And yeah, she really, really is.
^^^ Eating snacks in the water and signing "more"... two (or ten!) puffs for the fishies, one for Navi...

6 comments

  1. I love this post and also loved when you wished Happy Mother's Day to those waiting on the "two pink lines"- that's us!! :) Reading your blog makes me excited to have kids and I love your stories about motherhood!

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    1. Thanks so much Rachel, you're so sweet! I think waiting on those two pink lines can be one of the hardest parts of being a mama. I know it seemed like forever when we were waiting for one of those tests to come up positive for us... hang in there, you're baby is on their way to you :) xoxo

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  2. I'm so glad you're dream has been realized. What a fantastic dream it is.

    And annoyed thinking about all the sleep dreams that we can't extend just a little longer. Thanks for that one.

    Also, the last picture of her reminds me so much of Declan I just want to scoop her up with big kisses!

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    1. Thanks, Christina... me too :) and the worst is when you wake from the sleep dream and then try to continue it with a little snooze button action but you can't pick back up where you left off, very uncool.

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  3. I cant get over how good your pictures are. This post is beautifully written. Being a mama is so wonderful!

    ashley

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    1. Thanks so very much, Ashley... I'm definitely still trying to figure out how to use my camera! And yes, it really is :)

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